Today, I cried

Today, I cried again.
How could I have been so dumb to think that I was over it?
Yesterday I felt that I could do anything.
Today, I am vulnerable and lost.

My mind says move, my heart says stop.
I can't read the signs.
I'm confused, and need clarity.
The world and it's God are against me, that's all I feel.

I can't move on. I can't look at you. I can't stop thinking about you.
Comparing. Judging. Standardizing.
Today, I talked to you.
Today, I cried again.